july has gotten away from me

this month i started a number of posts and saved them as drafts.

they are not finishing themselves

and 

i have not found the space i need to finish them.

this season, life feels like it has rattled on like a freight train, leaving me gasping for breath.

i've tried to be intentional about filling any free spaces with contentment for staying in the moment and 

being present with the ones i love;

rather than getting lost in my internal pressure of the oughts and shoulds.

august is almost here and in one week i am taking a month of vacation.

i look forward to it, with flutters of anticipation and excitement.

a time to be with the ones i love and see the country.

a time to rattle on like a freight train, leaving life gasping for breath.

until then, be well.

love,

d

second chances

{thank you for giving me second chances}

for mother's day, my husband encouraged our oldest kiddo to write me some encouragements.

so he cut some strips of paper.

he wrote some "inkrigmints"

and then left them in my wallet to find later.

he left 4 notes.

they are little treasures i carry with me nearly 2 months later.

but the one about second chances stood out.

partly because his spelling is such a work-in-progress

but mostly because it feels raw and genuine 
{and took me by complete surprise}

this note highlights a part of our relationship that feels so tacit and subtle and yet, so significant.

i can't help but wonder what exactly he was thinking about when he wrote it.

but i smile hearing that he feels like he has space to totally mess things up in my presence and

he will still get a "do-over" and  

i will still love him.

always