does God care if i go to church?

i have both briefly perused and deeply read a number of books about church.

about my generation or your generation {you name it} and church.

it is one of the pleasures and perils of having worked in ministry.

but none of them answer the question i come up against each Sunday morning:

does God care if i go to church?

i know what many authors and theologians and academics think about it.

i know what many of my peers think about it.

i know what many fellow congregants feel about it.

but as i make other choices for my time and community on any given day, Sunday or otherwise, 

i continue to think about why i do or do not attend church.

my absence in a church - chair,  pew, or otherwise - is not to say i don't feel the yearning.

my absence is not to say i don't believe in God.

my absence is not to say i don't believe in the church as an institution, as a community.

but, what if church is not where one feels or experiences God?

what if one feels and experiences God: 

beyond the confines of any church building?

 embedded in the relationships built around her?

 in the ebb and flow of living, fully and earnestly?

in engaging in service to others?

what if one feels and experiences God despite herself?

i know that going to church provides an indicator to others about one's faith and 

going to church provides an indicator of one's commitment to the church and God and christian community.

i know that my going {or not going} to church means something to people.

but does God care?