Wednesday, February 15, 2012

on my way to work

Each time I head to work, I pass by this banner planted on a church lawn:
Do justice.
Love kindness.
Walk humbly with God.
                                                            - Micah 6:8

And, I read it and reflect on it. 
Every time.
This week I realized how I have come to rely upon that banner;
it centers me somehow and helps me transition into work.

work.
A place where I need to see each person and situation with "just" eyes and respond accordingly.
A place where I am asked to offer kindness to people in situations that test the limits of kindness.
A place where I need to humble myself {my thoughts, my attitude, my pride, my agenda} -  to be fully present.
With others.
In the moment.

I pass by this banner on the way home too.
But it does not catch my eye.
I have no idea if it says the same thing on the other side.
And it doesn't matter. 
The words still ring in my ears long after my shift is over.
And even now as I am preparing for bed, it sits gently in my mind.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

suits and sweatpants

ever noticed how people travel in attire that falls into one of these two categories?
this struck me a few days ago as i sat waiting to board my flight.
the contrast was striking enough to me that i even counted how many of each.

it got me thinking about the display i saw last summer at the air and space museum in D.C.
about how plane travel was an exceptional event and people used to get fancy to fly.
&
it got me thinking about how far we have come since the advent of passenger flight.
about how one's attire is a choice.

one part of me wants to think that:
what people choose to wear when they fly has no bearing on who they are.
but
another part of me wants to think that:
what people choose to wear when they fly definitely says something about who they are.
what do you think?

and more importantly, 
what are you?

suit
or
sweatpants
?

{*suits can also be any sort of "dressy" clothes and sweats are specific to attire such as sweat or yoga pants - really, anything that one might wear to bed}

Sunday, February 5, 2012

ministry musings


I have a large filing cabinet drawer in my living room and 3 large bins in the basement containing artifacts I have actively avoided for 3 years.  Their contents represent some of the most spectacular years of my life but also some of the most painful and heartbreaking years of my adult life.

Over six years ago I interviewed for a Youth Director position at a local church.  
 I never thought I would end up in youth ministry and yet... 
I felt compelled to apply for this position. 
{Such is the way of ministry, I am told}
The church was looking to rebuild a youth program that had deeply suffered from a series of missteps following what many described as “the golden era” of youth ministry. I had a decade of experience with youth and their families across myriad settings, a few years of program development under my belt, and a “contagious enthusiasm.”  
I was offered the job.
The rhythm of youth ministry suited me well.
 I struggle here with wanting to write about the intricacies of my ministry experience, to include the fine details of my journey, but in sifting though all the details, I find them to be fairly inconsequential to the story.

Yesterday* I met with a former student for breakfast and I was reminded of how I felt when I resigned:
I loved my job but hated working for a church.
Yesterday I sat across from a kiddo who, when we first met, might be considered "at-risk."
He was not the easiest student to have as part of the program.
He was not a rule follower,  and he did not always make the right choices.
But we had authentic connection 
- he felt there was room for him to be genuinely known and loved  -
and that has counted for a lot since day one.
Even though I was his church leader.
Even though my choices in life may be considered less risky.
Even though our interests, in general, are not particularly aligned.

Yesterday, I sat across from a young adult who has mellowed with age.
Who, having dealt with some fairly steep consequences for his actions, chose to re-connect with family and community and God in an attempt to move forward. 
Since I resigned, he and I have remained in contact and have talked through a lot of the details of life. He and I have remained in authentic connection.
I am thankful for that continued relationship.
And
I am thankful for the opportunity to bear witness to God's relentless pursuit in our lives.


* I actually started this post weeks ago so it's relationship with real-time is a bit skewed.