parallel play isn't just for kids

to say the last couple months have been crazy-pants for our household is a mild description.

we have purchased groceries that remain rotten in our refrigerator.

we have gone days without seeing each other for more than 15 minutes.

our eldest has stated they have had a babysitter or been without "mama snuggles...way too much" and

my husband has rented videos from the library - most of which have had to be returned. 

unwatched.

so tonight, when we have "nothing" to do, i suggest we watch a movie together.

then 2 hours later i took my suggestion back.  

indian giver.

the kids are in bed. 

we finished dinner together outside on the patio.

and now i just want to sit close and "do other stuff."

i feel conflicted with wanting to spend time together - engaging in something together and 

trying to capitalize on the quiet time to get through some other tasks on my "want to do" list:

write.

read.

watch trashy t.v.

listen to music.

drink wine.

stare into space with my feet on the coffee table.

the end result:

wine and feet are on the coffee table.

our legs are touching and his hand intermittently rubs my back.

he is playing a video game while i tinker on the computer.